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January 25, 2008
Drained
My week of refocusing has not quite lived up to expectations. A friend is going through some really ugly times, and that came to a head over the past couple of days. Feeling so helpless and powerless to stop the chain of events there has been more draining than I could have imagined, but we'll all get through it. I've realized that I do believe in karma, or more specifically, karmic retribution. And when the woman behaving like a 13 year old child gets that retribution, I'll be very very happy. Hope the misery and pain was worth it!
On the work front, I still don't want to go back on Monday. The thought of it is already bumming me out, and that's just not a good place to be mentally. I know that I can't quit yet because I'm not willing to make the sacrifices necessary to live on one income. At the same time, I'm also too exhausted and burned out from the day job to have any energy left for planning and executing an alternative. I'm trying to keep myself going til the end of May when we take the NYC trip, and I'm trying to think of work in terms of what it's earning me. How many days til I can pay for a new roof? How many days to save up for the animals' emergency vet fund? How many days to pay for the NYC trip? Whatever gets me through the day...
Posted by jodikins at January 25, 2008 9:11 AM
Comments
Hi Jodi(It's your name I think)
I am Tony, I come across your blog when I was searching the meaning of an English sentence on the internet today ^^ a weird comment(well it's not a comment actually but just want to ask help) isn't it!
In your blog, you said you knew that a friend was in trouble but you didn't do anything about that, so you felt guilty,right??
And that article's title is "But I need more than myself this time"
I want to know what does this sentence mean actually??
I live in China and I speak English, but not so well. "Red Hot Cilly Pepper" is my favorite band, they got a song called "Snow". I have a hard time trying to understand the lyrics of the song, the same sentence "But I need more than myself this time"appeared there also.
I hope that you will see the message and reply me(my email is up there). Nice the meet you and thanks for your help^^
Posted by: Tony at February 9, 2008 10:15 AM