My week of refocusing has not quite lived up to expectations. A friend is going through some really ugly times, and that came to a head over the past couple of days. Feeling so helpless and powerless to stop the chain of events there has been more draining than I could have imagined, but we'll all get through it. I've realized that I do believe in karma, or more specifically, karmic retribution. And when the woman behaving like a 13 year old child gets that retribution, I'll be very very happy. Hope the misery and pain was worth it!
On the work front, I still don't want to go back on Monday. The thought of it is already bumming me out, and that's just not a good place to be mentally. I know that I can't quit yet because I'm not willing to make the sacrifices necessary to live on one income. At the same time, I'm also too exhausted and burned out from the day job to have any energy left for planning and executing an alternative. I'm trying to keep myself going til the end of May when we take the NYC trip, and I'm trying to think of work in terms of what it's earning me. How many days til I can pay for a new roof? How many days to save up for the animals' emergency vet fund? How many days to pay for the NYC trip? Whatever gets me through the day...
